I Miss You

Today, February 25, would be my Mamaw Guidry's 83rd birthday...and God how I wish she was still here! I miss her more than words can really describe. I miss hearing her say "Hello Darlin" when I'd call her...which I tried to do at least once a week. I miss her cooking, I miss her sassy remarks, I miss the smell of her house...it never changed...and I can still smell it in the blanket I have of hers...I miss the stories she'd tell about my grandpa, whom I can barely remember...the stories about my mom and aunts and uncles, I miss playing cards with her...even if she did cheat sometimes ;), I miss her flower beds on her patio...nobody has a better green thumb than she did, I miss how she was always the last one eating, I miss how she stood in the driveway and waved as we left her house until she couldn't see us anymore, I miss how I always told her I'd be taller than her one day...but I never made it, I miss her T.V. blaring CMT, I miss telling her about my life...As you can tell...I just flat out miss her!! And as I'm going through this rough time in my life with both of my parents being sick...I just so desperately want to talk to her...see her...hug her just ONE more time. I just know she'd tell me how proud she was of me for going to school...and I know she'd love Manny and I know she'll be there on our wedding day. Does the pain of losing a loved one ever really go away? Or do you just learn to cope? I just don't know...it's already been a few years since she left us...but the wound still feels so fresh...and days like today just seem to pour salt into that wound.

I Miss You

You used to call me your angel

Said I was sent straight down from heaven

You'd hold me close in your arms

I loved the way you felt so strong

I never wanted you to leave

I wanted you to stay here holding me

[CHORUS:]

I miss you

I miss your smile

And I still shed a tear

Every once in a while

And even though it's different now

You're still here somehow

My heart won't let you go

And I need you to know

I miss you,

sha la la la la

I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer

And now I'm living out my dream

Oh how I wish you could see

Everything that's happening for me

I'm thinking back on the past

It's true that time is flying by too fast

I know you're in a better place, yeah

But I wish that I could see your face,

oh I know you're where you need to be

Even though it's not here with me

[CHORUS]

My grandma loved lighthouses...as she was from N. Carolina originally..and everytime I see one...I think of her...and miss her more. I miss you so much Mamaw!!!

Stride4Stroke

Mom, Me, Aunt Delo, and Nate

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Update...I had a great weekend with my mom. I really hate seeing her like this...but she's already come so far!! We took her for a "wheel" on Saturday afternoon outside. She's going stir crazy inside! And Sunday she showed off her walking skills and walked around her whole hospital floor with her walker by herself. She had a MRI this morning just to make sure they didn't miss anything on the cat scan Friday...so lets pray for a clear MRI. Tomorrow there will be a meething with all her doctors, therapist, her husband, and my aunt...and they will discuss her progress and possible discharge tomorrow. I will keep everyone updated. Please continue to pray...

On the road again

So here I am in the car with my sister and nate...we're going to see my mom in louisiana. It's been 9 days since her stroke and the finding of her aneurysim. She's been in inpatient rehab since tuesday and she's doing well. She had a rough day yesterday...when she woke up she was unable to walk or use her left arm and she had a headache so they sent her for a ct scan and thankfully it came back clear. We think she is just totally worn out with all the rehab she has been doing. We're really proud of her and her progress. She actually just called and said she's feeling better today and she just got back from therapy. Sherie and I have formed a team for the strides4stroke 5k put on by MEthodist hospital so I will post that link here soon. I just want to thank everyone for their support and prayers for me and my family. Our family is being tested right now but we are going to pull through this together. Well that's all for now...don't want to waste the whole crackberry battery at once!

The Tooth Fairy Loves Our House!

The "tooth fairy" made another visit to our house this week! Caily lost her 3rd tooth! She really makes me laugh when she talks about her "new" teeth. You know how their baby teeth are super white and when the new teeth grow in they are a litter darker (which confuses me!?) but anyhow...Caily calls them her "gray teeth." She says they look gray! hahah It's really cute. Daddy was home this time so he had the pleasure of pulling it out!! Thank goodness because we all know I can't do it. =) Here's a picture...

Everything else is going pretty good. Both of the girls received the "Principal's Award" at school Tuesday morning. Yay girls!! That means ZERO conduct marks all last semester. Autumn was definitely borderline on that award, lol. She racked up quite a few "yellow marks" but zero "red marks" which are the actual conduct marks. The school has changed the policy this semster though....yellow marks are a thing of the past....straight to red marks now! So far...so good though!

Today will be my dad's THIRD round of treatment!! So far he's been tolerating them well. He says he's tired but that's all he says about it. I think we are all in agreeance that he's been a little "cranky" but that's to be expected!! He's still working on the whole smoking thing...and he does NOT like to hear us complain to him about his smoking. So please continue the prayers...and maybe throw a prayer up there to help him have the patience and will to quit smoking. I know it's not an easy fight...especially for someone who has been smoking for 35+ years.

I get my braces off next Thursday! Yay!! I will be sure to post pictures after they are removed. Othere than that...nothing exciting going on for me! Just busy with school....who knew there was so much homework in big school? =) I hope everyone is doing great!! BTW, Happy 25th Birthday(tomorrow) to my best friend of 1,564,733 years! Ok maybe not that long but it seems like it's been forever! Love ya Jo!!